rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
1.26.2007
-11:27:00 PM
I'm wasting spacewasting people's time, energy and hopes on me.sometimes i wonder why life has to be so tiringwhy life has to be packed full of activities and goalsmaking us all disappointed and drained out at the endseriously, if you asked me whether i'm prepared to 'leave this life'i wont reply to it, instead i'll sayi think i've lived my life in vaineverthing seems unimportant to me nowi dont care abt people's opinion of me.gossips etcbut i'm thinking alot abt studieswhich makes me feel weirdi know my purpose, but i'm losing sight of itchem SPA on monday after sch, means i cant go for cca's orientation!): like half the sec 4s cant go la
and ms chng and mrs chiaw cant go too, maybe we can postpone it?haha see first
ooh!chief came back on monday and i said hi to her and she smiled at me
HAHAHHAHH
dolly looks super tall now,but she insists its her sports shoe.
she must have been so honored to know that i rushed out to see her, hahahha!(;
i miss my seniors):
random:my keyboard 'delete' key is spoiled!cant press delete anymore):
i really dislike my amaths teacher
stupid sinister smile
it was so obvious that we hate her and she can continue and pretend like nth happen and continue to do those stuff
impatient person
tsk
and i found out a few days ago that we still have both PAE and JAE!
i changed my mind,
i'm so upset!
i dont want):
i'm sorry, but MOE's education policies keep changing and randomly update itself, its getting frustrating to keep check of them and understand fully our education system
ystd was a very bad day
jogging basically sucked
pe dept was really unfair
cedar really is disgusting this days
so much time is wasted by the 'rule-planning committee' to think of ridiculous rules and implement them and expect us not to rebel or have any opinion abt it
strepsils are not allowed to eat in class?hair cannot be left dangling?religious lockets forbidden?
whatever, its seriously dumb
and having long skirts doesnt make us look well-groomed, it makes us look stupid and disgusting
are you implying that short skirts makes us more stupid, and long skirts makes us look cleverer?
our 'short' is not your 'short'
whats wrong with having 2-3 fingers above knee skirts, its not as if we 'll alter our skirts till thigh-length right?my gosh
I was left to wonder abt Your wonder
1.19.2007
-10:07:00 PM
feels so good to be online agn, the past week was not a good week, i broke down many times. there's such a big surge of emotions that i dont know where to start with
you know, when you are convinced that everything is going down, every other small little thing will seem like a huge problem and suddenly, everything worsens.
that's what's happening to me now, my present mind is full of pessimistic thoughts
i feel taken for granted. it's really sad to know that after so long, i'm still being taken for granted. not everyone has a happy day everyday. not even me. i may seem all cheery and not minding the comments, but i'm really hurt by all of them. i'm not going to clarify anything, i dont want a situation where anyone says sorry to anyone, and the situation gets all awkward and weird. friendships will be strained. i just ask that you'll/yall will pls respect me as a friend.
i have been tearing hair from my head and grouched up because of cca-related matters. suddenly i wondered whether i'd been doing a good job all along,whether i will lead handbell well. thankyou weiting, for standing by me. thanks yanyi for being so concerned for us. teacher politics, i call it, is (one term is self-explanatory enough) scary. you will never know if you have never seen it happen in real life before. i dont think i've ever felt so guilty-ridden before. yanyi's telling me isn't my fault. i'm not convinced. enough, i shall not say further
and even small little things like low gradings for maths and ss assignments are affecting me a great deal
when is all this going to end? what am i fighting for? whats my fighting spirit there for? where is it even? where's God when I need Him?
this year isnt off to a smooth start, i want to make things better
but how?thank you zhiyun, for listening
give me courage, hope and strength to continue walking this path Lord. tell me you're standing by me, show me the way. In Jesus Name I Pray, Amen
1.05.2007
-10:36:00 PM
was looking through my old photos when i was in sec 1( ok well not exactly old,haha)
my gosh, i look disgusting, let me describe it to you, its like this long black curtain of disgusting hair hanging/drooping down my either sides of my head, making me look like a stupid ghost which appeared before/after the seventh month
yuck
end of story
in conclusion, i think i look better now.HAHAH, crap
next week is a hectic week
there's hb prac on monday, syf rehearsal on tues, comm discussion on wed, induction rehearsal on thurs, and finally induction performance on sat
kind of looking forward to the week,because i enjoy performing,but i just realised that there's physics test next friday):
rahhs, and i dont even know the topics, so cant study over the weekend
i finally bought the furry furry pink cloth to line my 'jewellry box', and nice syikin went with me!hehe i should have taken photo of her carrying the whole bundle of pink furry cloth!but see, i'm so nice okay.(: haha no la, its because she was nice enough to accompany me go buy(:
oh yah!my sis met ahem in the toilet at vj ystd, some girl's talk, ahha quite funny
speaking of my sister, i realised she still owes me ten bucks): pay me money la woman...
that horrible girl refused to return me):
lit today, class venue: beside
dead nature. HAHA,whattheheck. and we're supposed to bring soft toys the next lessons,my soft dog's too big, so i shall bring my palm sized ex-loved-softtoy,haha ok so exciting'_'
i just found out some stuff abt pple and got really disgusted and all, but then agn, who am i to judge?let's leave things as it is.
SPREAD THE NEW YEAR CHEER:D
