rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
8.31.2006
-5:05:00 PM
hello(:
pupil leader's time ystd was fine.
ok not really that fine,
but it was fun(:
thanks 3I and those handbellers who cheered(:
anw, i am posting this weird picture.
because dollyfoo's face is going to be thrown away.
HAHS.
she said me and weiting looked like we are attending a funeral procession or smth when walking up the stage.wth la!
haha FUNNY?its supposed to be the see no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil thing.
and its overrated i know.haha
this is so random but yeah..
i miss exco 05-06.
i rmb after we had scoldings or meetings,
we would sit down tgt in a circle and discuss, complain, bitch, comfort each other.
then we would try to cheer each other up, think of plans, and tell each other things to make everyone laugh.
the topics we discussed were ever so lame and stupid
including who went for BALLET in the past(hahaha!), who ou who, teachers, and practically everything.
then we would play games, play with mallets, play with the wood tocktock thing,
tell jokes, play piano etc.
haha gosh, i realised it sounds so routine-orientated.
but its not la.just mainly randomly typing down what i can rmb
yingting! aruna! dolly! all the best for your exams!
u can do it yeah(: i know its not easy, but we are behind you.
we can have study sessions tgt and we can help to destress tgt!
jiayous
takecare darlings(:
loves<3
we celebrated teacher's day in sch today.
cheered like crazy.screamed like mad.
went bonkers trying to find teachers from outside the staff room.
i hope my teachers like the presents(:
mass dance cancelled due to heavy rain and wet courtyard):
its quite stupid now that i think abt it
we missed so many jogging sessions just to practice our mass dance
amd when aces day comes itself, we are not doing the actual thing.
arent we wasting time?literally?
ahh whatever.crapping.
i saw
someone skipping today
haha quite funny.
we've got alot of hw to do.
ok not alot, but amaths and emaths 5 sets in total):
and i need to do souvenirs for open hse.
its super cute and nice that i think there wont be any left!
hohos(:
8.27.2006
-7:36:00 PM
i jogged THREE KM ystd.
at punggol park.
haha bye fats!bye calories!bye carbohydrates and whatever rubbish that makes me fat!
i feel proud of myself!LOL
every sat,i am going to wake up at 8 to jog.
jog jog JOG.
but my legs hurt like crazy now.
and i have freaking blisters on my right heel, and underneath my two big toes
blahhs
because my sch shoe has got holes at the foot padding area
darn. dont ask me why
oh yeah. BIG NEWS.
I TOOK OUT MY BRACES!(:
now i've got NICE WHITE STRAIGHT teeth.
so i am going to smile more than usual this week.
HAHAS.not funny
reply tags(:
muhaina: haha.off ur calculator!(:
jessica: thanks for helping me fix the tagboard(:
priscilla: yay i know -smiles- HAHA. i take it as a compliment:D
tunnyuan: haha! i like to! very sweet rite.lol
tayzhiyun!: haha.ugh ci sucks.but we complete alr!:D -hifive
susmitha: eh what sick! i am not la.who's the one speaking.haha
liuqiong: (: oh no.u know what i am so gonna die for jubilee.):
junling: i know! i saw u.haha(:
elyana: yep i know.better now thanks(:
lichu: hey dearie!yeah, i know. i focused wrongly.but believe me, i really tried.yupps thanks(: i write u a letter SOON ok?(: huggs<33
tmr's macbeth.
DIE.
then tuesday is GE.
also DIE.
ugh
8.25.2006
-12:05:00 AM
I'm going to type two msgs to 2 pple, namely person a and b.words to me, are often better expressed writing it down than saying it out.person a:dont act like u give a damn.dont act like u really minded.dont act like you KNOW EVERYTHING.dont FREAKING act like a total b, fine, CHEAPSKATE DISGUSTING person.YIKES.do you even understand how I feel?you dont even care abt my feelings.yes YOUR rantings, i listenMY rantings, MY words, do YOU even listen?no.nth goes into your freaking head.what happened?I cant help feeling disappointedyou make yourself happy, at like what?at the EXPENSE OF MY FEELINGS?what rubbish shit disgusting crap is this?we were/are supposed to be friends.good friends in fact,but nth's going right.ever heard of the word facade?it OBVIOUSLY existed because there's a meaning behind it.its ok,i will act like nth's happen.at the most i will just suffer, and u can go on and live ur happy life.alone is better than both.person b:we live in the same house, same room.share the same light, same ceiling, and same everything.but ever since u moved on to ur jc life, nth's going right btwn us.u find me a nuisance probably,when i ask u qtns with kind intentions,you think i'm trying to poke into your life.what happened to the bond btwn us?we were supposed to have TELEPHATHY(not funny) and understand each other, because we lived under the same roof for close to 15 years.and after FIFTEEN yrs, you still dont botheryou take EVERYTHING for granted.you take dad and mum for granted.you take the warmth in our family for granted.you treat ur friends like treasure, and us like freaking dirt.whats this?our questions are crapand their questions are concern.isit?pls say no.as if it isnt enough, u feel happy when dad and mum compares the both of us,when i felt so inferior,you nvr once stood beside me and say words to let me know u are proud of me.and u just stood there smiling away.u nvr understand.u nvr will.because u are always at the top, u nvr dropped, pple always sing ur praises and u neglect me and u dont give a damn abt my emotionsu didnt comfort me and took my covering-up smile as an excuse.u dont know how much i struggled just to meet up to their expectationsand let them and YOU not look down on me.i tried my best.my all.you dont know how it is like to be comparedand u dont know how much a person has to struggle just to prove the pple around her wrong.i tried but i'm tired now.i dont feel the drive anymore.because no one's helping, and i feel alone.
8.23.2006
-7:39:00 PM
mans, i have ALOT of things to blog abt.i am back to blogging! because my com. is fixed(:and there's thousands of virus is this oldoldOLDOLD com, so its super duper WOLS.hahas!i did three and a half hrs of studying today.ON CHEMISTRY.(jessica's going to be so proud of me.haha)and studying at 2s bench rocks because the breeze there is damn nice.but the seat is so lousy, it either keeps moving up or moving down.darn.and the wind is so strong my papers kept flying away and i had to run after them, i think i looked like a little kid running after a rolling ball or smth.and i sat there for so long till my butt hurt like crazy):my balloon got blown away!the little pink one which sarahj bullied me with. HAH. and CHERYL CHIN just stand there and laugh and laugh and LAUGH. then it got blown down to first level ok!wth. and i ran all the way down to get it.guess what.IT FREAKING BROKE when i touched it.(or rather bursted.haha)darn!and i went back up, cheryl and ex-ldr apriani(is it spelled like that?) were laughing.HELLO?SADIST.tsktski practically whined like shit and they started to fake-cry to sympathise with me.EH!like whatever la!gdness, i am super busy this week, cca meetings, tests, hw, co-ordinating. darn! and there's rubbish paper of physics tmr. then the day after next is the freaking stupid chem paper.oh, did i mention i have chem tuition at mavis?guess not, i just started last week.and of all days, its monday.from like 8-9.30.wth! i have cca on monday!till like 6.and i found a chem teacher who is on par with m.c(look at me, because i'm smirking).i come home at 10pm, and i wake up at 5am to do hw.check me out on tuesdays, because i have PANDA EYES.freak.today was buzz canteen!our class performed first(: i think we went off-pitched thousand and one times but its okay, because its a class effort and we were enthusiastic on it(:the first part was super dumb. 'huat de'(or is it 'what the'?haha) part i ended laughing.got influenced by panda's SEISMIC laughter then i started laughing and in the end she pang-sehed me by not laughing, and i was left to laugh alone):hahalichu and zhiyin sang super nice!i swear that that practically everyone in the canteen looked up when u two started singing!:Dyay good job 3I!and today's a good day.(:thursday and friday wont be):ACSB!HAHAno,it doesnt stand for acs(barker)LOL!
8.10.2006
-1:13:00 PM
ahh! super cute! :D i love the lollipop too(:
8.09.2006
-12:13:00 PM
i looked like a STRIPED ZEBRA ystd.
gosh.
anw, ndp celebration ystd was fun! except the constant moving when we were at 2nd level empty corridor.but shall not complain, since there were much more pple squeezing opp us.
but nvm, its ok muhaina and nicole and me still managed to secure a gd place though! haha(;
the contingents marching were super zai! not forgetting the flagbearers too! HAHA. congrats to syikin, nishanthi, sarahj and fathiyah for marching so well! :D
indoor celebration was great too! i was super high during singing songs. and challenging others to jump higher and HIGHER!haha. and shaking sus and marli and muhaina when the 'FRIENDS' word came in. LOL.((:
then prize presentation. yingting, aruna and dolly went to receive prize. i think i was one of the few handbellers cheering. what happened to our juniors? just think abt how much they have done for us. cheering was only a very simple and decent thing to do.
after it ended, mr yau said those who wanted could stay for mass dance again so we stayed back. but in the end, they took so long to get started that we left first. (we could dance in class ourselves without malu-ating ourselves!):D
when we were in the hall waiting, nicoleng was trying to DAO someone.
i dont get it la, dont u both feel weird? haha nvm.
man, i feel very cold now, i wonder is it because i am going to fall sick soon?
oh, no, because the main door isnt close and the wind is blowing at me and the disgusting smell of the paper ashes(its lunar 7th month)
haha lame.
we have loads of hw to do! 3 sets of amaths, english essay, emaths.
DIE like shit.
gtg bye!
u dont know how i feel do u?
u think its a very silly thing for me to be upset abt.
u feel i'm over-reacting.
u feel i'm childish.
but no, i have my own pride,
my own mind,
my own feelings.
its fun for u?
but not for me.
i'm gonna put everything down.
because i dont give a damn anymore.
because, ignorance the word.
8.04.2006
-11:15:00 PM
OMG. nishanthi just told me today she has her number.hahagot a big shock, dont ask me why.(:but i didnt ask drama queen to give me her number,i'd rather ask myself, if i could.ystd was pretty fun joking around, felt so accomplished!because we finished 2 boards within 3+hrs.but anw thats not the case.point is i know pple may just walk past and freaking give STUPID comments,but i dont give a damn. we did our best u see, stop putting us down.if u are THAT smart, go ahead and revamp it. i wont stop youanw, heck abt those WEIRDOS.i think the aesthetics board is super neat and much more brighter now, though the stars may be too small. hahatoday sch was quite fun, i always have a hard time trying to get syikin to OFF a calculator,(or rather, off it by myself) because her calculator will sure go flat one day due to over-on-ning. and when i off it, she ons it back again! like whatever! and then i go to the back rows and realised muhaina, sus, adel, sher also nvr off calculator! why arh.( i off-ed for them too.duh.)arent they afraid their cal. dies on them during o'levels or smth?tsk. after sch went with mingee and priscilla to macpherson to eat yongtaufoo. but the stall was pretty much half-opened, the food didnt seemed to be cooked! ):then we went to the nearby coffeshop to eat fishball noodles. haha i finally found someone who's MORE afraid of CATS than me. priscilla tan.hahahas she practically jumped out of her chair when it was 2METRES away from her.hello? i was 50CM away my dear girl.see, esther's like BRAVE.wahahahahas.:D :Dmeet-the-parents was in the evening.mdm koh was totally nice abt it!she didnt put me down like what my previous FT didand instead encouraged my parents to support me in whatever I do.i guess she understands my problem. I still rmb i cried quite badly during reading period when talking to her last term, due to pressure and hw and my personal life and everything. and i poured out almost everything to her. i just felt i could trust her la.i'm going to include a prayer request section in my post everytime i blog.u all can also tag on my blog and tell me ur prayer requests(:in this way, we can pray for our fellow christians u see, and help each other along the way to eternity(:prayer request:>pray for constant walk with the Lord>pray for constant reminders from God's word so that i will not stray>more self-discipline>me and my family>my aunt and cousin, so that they will have a safe flight backthanks!(:
