Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours

esther
cedar
handbell
4I
loves Him

-10:17:00 PM

HELLO!
tmr's hmt
i havent studied my tb yet and its 10.15 now.
tell me i'm pro

haha

today was so stupid
sitting at the back with tayzhiyun was so lame
haha and THANKS for ur markers ah!i like the GREEN one!(:

oh and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SYIKIN.
ACSB!stupid retard, one year older alr, stop being CHILDISH ok.
'KE-KE-KE'
and i know you love the biscuits,happy munching!(:
the bamboo pole was so dumb, sorry la couldnt get you a fat, full-of-juice one
hoho.
and thanks for doing me the favour la(:


handbell members collected their shirts from us today.
wasnt as 'climax' as i expected,
but oh wells

one word summarised everything
CHAOTIC
'my friend's waiting outside for me'

OH MY SHIT.
is that more impt or your cca?

whatever.

mr sng gave us gummies today.how nice
haha
and there was a gummy in the shape of an octopus

STUPID NO-BRAIN(literally) ONE-EYED OCTOPUS.
(haha!insidejoke(: )


gosh, so much for not blogging.
more self-discipline esther!
):


reply tags:

weihan: haha dontknow leh,EH ur tshirt and file is with me! priscilla refused to bring it home for u.haha(:
jessica arnanta tjung: HAHA.i think you are the one pls.i come after you with a pencil ah!-pokePOKE!
lq: haha u all liked?(:
jiahui: i linked u alr!sorry(:the chalet havent book yet!i dont know who to find, any suggestions?i tried the teachers alr...
nishanthi: oh man, i hate the word 'mug' now.look at cups also dont like.HAH, jiayou to u too!
sarahj: stop bullying me ah! what stupid plastic bag, and i cant push you down!): BOOS.how sad.haha the song..i'll sing to you before tamil tmr?howsthat.HAHA
daniel: yes i refuse to call you 'the man'. wth seriously.bishan library rocks!but it's always so crowded,nvr got a chance to study at the color-boxes): all the best for exams!(:
MUU`!: haha jon's eyes can electrify!((:u nvr wash my jckt for me ah!-wails(: siao, so did u wish her a not.hoho
NICOLE!: crap la, i didnt even wear those WEIRD stuff before.what 'box',sheesh, and its 'stupid' ok,yes.blahblahblah, like your golf ball always got in.HAHAS.and i'm NOT irritating or HIGH-PITCHED.my voice's just a teeny weeny bit higher, thats all.(: tc!


-9:36:00 PM

hello agn

i'm supposed to be studying chem now
so tell me why i'm here
haha

dont really care anymore
hmms


my parents are out,went to fetch my sis
guess where she went?

SINGAPORE IDOL finals.
ughh..

haha not like i care anyway,i just like to soak in that kind of atmosphere

and she's wasting tickets
going there with her friends to support her sch's choir

NOT the 'idols'.

what a waste.tsk


went to zhiyun's hse to study with her and nicole after english paper
it was QUITE productive,
considering i almost finished one amaths paper, and studied one chapt of chem
(:

no lunch!
dieting!

but we bought 6 packets of POTATO CHIPS and around 3 sushi each
haha, so much for dieting pls.

the golf game was stupid!i can get agitated from playing it, because the ball refuses to roll in.bahhs

tell me, how is ribena pronounced

me: RE-bena
zhiyun: RAY-bena
nicole: RAI-bena

haha pretty interesting eh.oh what a cute little(no, BIG) tiger with flowers for ears and listening to IRRELEVANT songs.

i was pretty much spooked by what nicole was saying,i mean, i cant imagine living there.
think i will get nightmares everyday most probably.

i'm glad we had some nice serious talk abt going-ons in our lives, and the diff. stress we are facing
hmms, would like to talk to you all more often okay!(:

i cant dance with pointe ballet shoes for nuts
apparently, its 'not over the box' yet.
haha but fun anyway!(:

hi shirts!i will see you all tmr!:D


-11:26:00 PM

updating agn
because i forgot to type smth(:

hey, i think you need to relax yeah
everyone has their own limits
you cant possibly push yourself so far, so much in fact, that you are going over the edge
maybe i really dont understand the stress that you are going through
but hey, everyone has got pressure and stress from external factors right?
but we still have got to learn how to manage it!
stressing yourself out with maths formulae,chinese characters,science eqns is NOT going to do you any good.
and you are not dumb,stupid, and whatever.you HAVE your own strengths, your abilities.

i know,i look at you, i see you stressing and getting f*ed up with all those textbooks is not going to bring you anywhere
u need a break my dear girl.

you've got try to understand your mum,she loves and knows you for who you are.
moreover,every parent will put a certain pressure on their own child,hoping that they will be motivated to study

you need to slow down
stop multi-tasking
appreciate the better and more worthwhile things in life before moving on

its late,
and i really hope you are having a good sleep now!
goodnight,will pray for you to sleep tight and NO eyebags(:


ps.as for that person, just tell her straight in the face to copy her notes herself
i did that know too!to lm, during lit, longlonglong time ago.haha oops.


-10:55:00 PM

hello!cant resist a SHORT update(:

everyone seems to have different attitudes towards exams
some panic like crazy, slping much later after midnight
then there are pple who create BLOGS to remind them of their schedules(haha),
then there are crazy pple(like me) who rephrase sentences from tb and write down the notes, wasting time away

then there will be others who think they still have LOTS OF TIME left
and leave everything to do last min mugging

i wonder which category are u all at?
haha


stupid workshop today
i got friggin' EIGHT marks for that short quiz
ahha

i'm BURNING OUT.
sheesh
'you need help.' eh?
haha

class strengh was super pathetic today
MYSTERIOUSLY SICK ah.

what the crap

did reflections today,
i thought i did okay
then people started telling me my voice was damn soft
shit, haha whatever

and my voice, surprisingly WASNT high-pitched!
haha(:


TSUNAMI!
jokeoftheday(:


-1:35:00 PM

Esther -- [adjective]: Like in nature to a kangaroo 'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

definition of nature of kangaroo:
'Kangaroos are shy and retiring by nature.'

HAHA.




siao


ok la,

trying to destress you see(:


and syikin wrote this on my paper few days ago

'Security is mortal's chiefest enemy'


even more crazy
hahas!

last post till 9th oct!(:

study hard and let the stupid STUDY bug BITE YOU.


-11:18:00 PM

THANKS TO GOD
Hello God,
I called tonight
To talk a little while
I need a friend who'll listen
To my anxiety and trial.
You see, I can't quite make it
Through a day just on my own...
I need your love to guide me,
So I'll never feel alone.
I want to ask you please to keep
My family safe and sound.
Come and fill their lives with confidence
For whatever fate they're bound.
Give me faith, dear God, to face
Each hour throughout the day,
And not to worry over things
that can't change in any way.
I thank you God for being home
And listening to my call,
For giving me such good advice
When I stumble and fall.
Your number, God, is the only one
That answers every time.
I never get a busy signal,
Never had to pay a dime.
So thank you, God, for listening
To my troubles and my sorrow.
Good morning, God, I love You too,
And I'll call again tomorrow!


sheesh, I dont feel like doing my reflections now at all.

I am studying pretty hard lately,
every subject seems to be never-ending
when I finished one chapter and go on to the next
I find that I cant rmb the previous one

studying how long doesnt help at all

the worse thing is,
when I thought I had learnt and memorised all
when in actual fact
I cant rmb anything

darn.this sucks
wasting time sucks

I finished writing my ss notes alr
thats abt the only subject that's really completed

need to do more sciences

did i mention my chem tuition doesnt help at all?
shit,waste money only

i had a freaky encounter with a secondary sch guy
scared me like shit
pls dont let me see you agn
thankyou

God Bless!:D


-12:21:00 PM

hello!
to whoever reads my blog that is,
(:

i was supposed to go to my last-time church open hse today, but apparently my parents dont allow.boos
sighs.i cant help feeling sad as i think of my church,
(noticed i used 'my'?)
yeah, i dont know, i am not really close to alot in the yf grp, only a few(whom i endear(:)
but there's this sense of attachment and belonging to the church in me

i mean c'mon, i have been there for like what 14+ years?
and we just left
just like that

in a matter of secs

and i fleetingly realised that
'hey, this is my last service man, i wont be stepping in agn, not gonna seat in the chairs and listen to sermons, not gonna wait and queue up for toilets(haha), not going to play captains ball, not going to see these people as often as before,nvr agn'
yes, its that bad

its amazing how time flies past
i nvr thought i would leave
and i always thought of how would i deal with leaving everyone else behind and moving on
i didnt believe that i would confront such a situation someday and i admired people who knew what to do in such situations because i thought that i would not survive

but hey, we always say 'gosh how, that person is so poor thing, i wouldnt know how to react if i were her.maybe i will just jump off a river and die or smth'

but now, being in the shoes of this 'poor thing', you will realise that no matter what, you have to face the problem eventually
there's NO escaping from reality,
you will soon realise that you subconsiously tell yourself to overcome this obstacle

its will soon be a 'come on, LET'S GO!' kind of thing

you cant give up now, not when you have come from such a long way back, there's many more things in life you havent achieved. what about your dreams?your goals?

because life's like that

because its cruel, but God is with us, so we have no reason to fear
true, we will meet with tribulations and obstacles
we may even find ourselves hating and condemning God at some point of time in our life
but we still gotta move on

because someday we will realise its all for our own good
and we will realise how childish we all were in the past

'regrets are from the result of greediness'
unknown


really? i dont know whether to agree or disagree
i think i'm neutral




hmms, i completed my hw(: which is a good thing(:
went studying in bishan library on thurs with nicole
ah, i think those pple sitting behind us were idiots

darn
the place was so noisy(4th floor)
were we studying in the children's level or smth

did emaths section b
finished(haha not exactly, skipped a FEW)(:

then amaths.
nicoleng i nvr give up okay!
i dont know how to do.
i even brought my notes!
haha better than u smart-ass
lol kidding
pretzels was okay what,
i just wished i bought cheese instead):

i hope the library didnt have a camera aiming at where we were sitting!
or else i think i would get caught or smth

esther's a bad girl
):

i slacked like crazy ystd
watched 4 vcds at a go
i need time-out
going to go mad soon
the paragraphs i wrote above was more of a note of warning and encouragement to myself.
ahha not funny

i feel like kicking you, but i cant
because I'm a Christian

haha how ironic


i think i am going to fail s.o.b on wed
still havent got a clue on how to write proper essays
i think mr sng is going to flip if he sees this,haha
i need to find him soon on how to write better essays,or i will just fail my lit EYE with a big fat red F

my blogskin's a little screwed
notice every second post onwards the words will automatically bold itself and change to PINK?
not like its a bad thing, but its getting irritating
haha

my sister's load some funny game into the com. 'O2jam' or smth
darn, i'm getting addicted

the game's quite stupid really
there's these game network where u can pit ur skills against other players

and i always find myself turning into a pig at the end
(meaning u are so bad that u turn from a girl into a pig)
but after that game, u obviously turn back into a girl agn(ur character)
and sometimes i will disappear into purple gas,which is even worse, because u turn from a girl into NOTHING.


HAHA.
and ur character can go buy clothes and assesories
and initially u are not wearing anything
because no money what
so its quite sick
that u are entering an internet room to play in your undies

EEW.
HAHAHHS.
the game itself is like para-para

aye ok, my mum's back
gtg
bye!(:


-5:50:00 PM

20 things smart alecks didnt know

1. the liquid inside young coconuts can be used as a substitute for blood plasma

2. no piece of paper can be folded into half for more than 7 times

3. donkeys kill more people annually then plane crashes

4. you burn more calories sleeping then you do watching television

5. oak trees do not produce acorns till they are 50years of age or older

6. the first product to have a bar code was Wrigley's gum

7. the king of hearts is the only kind without a mustache

8. american airlines saved $40 000 in 1987 by eliminating one olive from each salad served in first class

9. venus is the only planet that rotates clockwise

10. apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning

11. most dust particles in your hse are made from dead skin

12. the first owner of the marlboro company died of lung cancer.
so did the first marlboro man

13. walt disney was afraid of mice

14. pearls melt in vinegar

15. the three most valuable brand names on earth:
Marlboro, Coca Cola and Budweiser, in that order

16. it is possible to lead a cow upstairs, but not downstairs

17. a duck's quack does not echo, no one knows why

18. dentists have recommended that a toothbrush be kept at least 6 feet away from a toilet to prevent airborne particles resulting from the flush

19. Richard Millhouse Nixon was the first U.S president whose name contains all the letters of the word 'criminal'.
the second is William Jefferson Clinton

and the best for the last:

20.TURTLES CAN BREATHE THROUGH THEIR BUTTS.

end.



HAHHS. got this from nish.
no. 18 is darn funny!
i have a feeling most pple's mouths smell of 'airborne particles' from a toilet now!
hohos
and 20 is amazing.maybe some people in the world does that too.LALAS



tmr.we gonna order tees(:
HANDBELL TEES.
u all can wait and see.
cox its gonna be SUPER NICE:D

i did alot of hw today
trying to follow my schedule
i am left with one amaths paper now
say yayy:D



and panda says i ought to chill,

yeah maybe i really should


thanks anw(:


'Love is the difficult realisation that something other than oneself is real'
Iris Murdoch

and this

'Love isn't a decision. It's a feeling. If we could decide who we loved, it would be much simpler, but much less magical.'
Trey Parker and Matt Stone


-11:27:00 PM

hello(: i'm back
missed me?

I KNOW YOU DID LA.:D


open hse was ok
many were fascinated by our souvenirs(:
i'm so sorry to those cedarians who asked whether they can take!
because there wasnt any extra left
we didnt take too know!):

i think i used a great deal of saliva ystd
explaining to parents whats handbells,
practice schedule,
achievements etc etc.

gosh, do they really need to know all this?
maybe they are just interested:D
and i was so happy ok!
when one parent commented that handbells is very interesting
and 'i would let my daughter join if she joins cedar'

HAH!!yay(:

and i acted like a total AUNTIE on sat

gosh

in the morning:
i practically ran into the queue and jostled with the others(np and choir/or is it dance?) when mrs woo and mr khoo said the STAR balloons was going to be brought down
i was like eh eh, i want balloon!and susmitha started laughing at me!
there were too many pple who wanted the star balloons so mrs woo said she was going to conduct a lucky draw
those who got the paper with 'dynamite' scrawled on it will get a STAR balloon
those who didnt, well.. too bad

and i darn well didnt get it):
became a total auntie for 5 mins didnt help
so sad LA.):

evening:
i went with my family to a pasar malam near hougang and i was so excited because i havent been to night markets for super long time
then there was this store which sold nice pooh bear/disney paper wrappers for only 10cents each!i went like omg!cheap!
then i was rushing to choose choose choose then i looked all arnd me and thought
'eh! why all AUNTIES around me ah?'

SHIT.
realised how auntie i was acting.
ay, heck

i still bought 10 wrappers at a go(:
ohoh.haha

church today was okay, will blog abt the sermon some other time
got to slp, its 1 am alr.


i found a nice verse from my qt material

'For therefore we both labour and suffer reproach, because we trust in the living God, who is the Saviour of all men, specially of those who believe.' 1st timothy 4:smth(sorry!)

isnt it encouraging?(:

agnes
aisyah
amanda
atiqah
bernadine
charlotte
chandel
cheryl
daphne
daniel
denyse
dorothy
elyssa
eunice
fathiyah
handbell((:
hannah
huimin
jaanani
jessica
jiahui
jiahui
jiayuan
junling
krystal
leona
lichu
liu qiong
marli
mumuu
mstan:D
msm.tan:D
nicole
pearly
peirong
rebecca
sandra
sangeeta
sarah
sherry
sihui
sophia
susmitha
weihan
weiting
weiling
xinping
xinying
yanyi
yingting
yiying
zhiyun
ziling
2P(:
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